Old shit...

It’s thanksgiving and for the first time ever since I can remember, I am spending it alone..so I guess I am going to be writing all day…this one is for you ok… my special ghost reader…

so I met this woman, who for the first time in my life I felt was a spiritual match, but then turned out to she had feelings for another guy and wanted to cut things off with me... What do you say when your heart is so far gone into this person and they just want to be friends with you and THAT'S IT..... Would I be immature or mature if I got upset and yelled and cursed her out? It's funny as I sit here and think about this. I took the calm way out for the 1st time in my life. I was calm about everything and was actually very mature… imagine being nice about this ..lol.

Well I have.

Well, not really.

My heart is still with her, although I really miss the person I met and had those great times by the look out water with. I don't miss who she turned into, denying everything that was told me, making me feel as though every kiss was a lie... how do you handle that.
Imagine the thought of feeling that you don't know this person anymore; imagine thinking that you never knew this person to begin with.

What does life teaches you when you make these mistakes?
Why is it so important to follow your Gut feeling and not your heart?
Exactly how does this teach you to appreciate a GOOD woman?
Why is it you get the thoughts of what did you do wrong, when all you did was be yourself?