PM'sing

I have been in a real touchy mood for the past two weeks. It just feels like I have not been at the place I was before, and that just makes me even more frustrated. Since my birthday celebration, I have been making some changes; I decided to go back to the root of things and try to understand why I allowed certain mishaps to take place; in other words, I am making changes and while I like the new changes, some of my closest pals are having a hard time with it. Now, I hope you don’t misconstrue this opening paragraph thinking that I am about to alter my lifestyle, my means of communication, my flirtatious ways and my bravado, that won’t change dear. But I tell you this, I’ve become a lot stricter and bolder, a lot busier because I don’t feel like sharing my free time with people who question my abilities, my character and my level of understanding (maturity). I don’t know if I’m PMS'ing or what, but I need this touchy feeling to freaking stop.

So I was talking to someone the other day and this woman just blasted my character. I mean, I so wanted to respond but giving that I was in a good mood, I just ignored everything. She has apologized since but deep within I don’t give her a danm about that. I have never cared too much about apologies because we mean everything we say. You can blame it on whatever the hell you want, yet it doesn’t change the fact that you said it. Fuck heat of the moment, fuck past mishaps, if you said it, you musta meant it.