Today is simply one of those days. It’s a good day. When I woke up this morning, I just had this special feeling. No, I didn’t none last night, so it’s not that. I am just feeling. No special feelings, just a good ol’ feeling. We’re about to hit a quarter of the year and so far everything have been exactly like I predicted, fucked up...so I have to give thanks for that. I woke though with a sense of focus and renewed energy and my vision has never been clearer. Somehow I wish I could this feeling to anyone reading this entry. At this very moment, whatever problems I am going through doesn’t matter to me anymore because I will no longer let my situation or circumstances dictate my feelings.
I’ve always been serious about my life; especially things and people I get involved with. I have made a few mistakes on that end but I’ve learned quickly who to trust, who to turn to in time of needs, who to count on, and most importantly, who to surround myself with. Just a few months before my 28th birthday and I finally got it; I am not going to react to any life events anymore. I am not waiting for any mishaps to happen in my life in order for me to get serious about things; I am going to create what I want to see for me and the people who count on me and go extremely hard from here on out. I feel good man. It’s good day.
One can say I’ve been spoiled a bit; I’ve had an easy life. I’ve always had good parents, good family members to reach out; so I guess in my adult life I have been spoiled a bit too. So to a certain extent, I allowed that to get out of control but that will no longer be the case.
I am walking around with one of those “I just hit the jackpot” attitude; it’s not even funny. I have no time to ponder of the break ups, the foes who pretended to be friends, the death of some good buddies etc. Pain is temporary so it’s time to move on to bigger and better things.
A good book and some soul searching is a pre-requisite of adulthood. My advisors used to say that in grad school.
I just now figured it out.
Mr. Prodg
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2 years ago
Wow, i love this. I am so proud of you babe. Indeed, there are times we find ourselves in a good mood that we cant explain. Enjoy the feeling.I forsee a new you, this is great.It isnt written anywhere, when a person will find his/her self; it's a process.
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ReplyDeletei am not sure if its about finding oneself; its more like, i am comfortable with the mishaps, the drama, the bullshit, etc
ok, got you. You wont let them get to you, define who you are.
ReplyDeleteWow, je t'admire!
ReplyDeleteJ'ai l'plaisir de te dire que j'suis fiere de toi et je suis super contant pour ce nouveau attitude. Tu m'as donne envie "d'accepter tous et de vivre malgre tout".
This post has definitely boosted my own morale. Thanks for sharing.