Should I be held accountable for missing you? Or should I just say, it was my choice to love you, so the cost of that love is my burden and my burden alone?
I mean, look at it this way, how can I take responsibility for you leaving? I know you claimed that I wasn’t enough for you, but is that really my fault? Last I checked I gave it my all, so you cannot say I didn’t try hard enough. What else was there?
Ok, I get it. Now I should take responsibility for being hurt? Or maybe I should have managed my emotions? Or is it because I loved you unconditionally and allowed you to go in and out as you pleased?
How can I take responsibility for all the mess you put me and my family through? What do I say to acknowledge the part I played in this?
Dad, why can’t I just blame you for this???
2021-2022 Season Finale
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*What's That Growling Noise?*
The WORD wonders. That growling noise could be his stomach. Maybe it’s the
backhoe digging up the front yard. Or, more like...
2 years ago
I do understand where you are coming from. For years I yearned to have a normal relationship with my father. Although he was there when I was younger; emotionally it was hell. I've realized that yearning for normal relationship with him is wishful thinking. He is great man, but not a great father. He is what he is and accepts our relationship. Actually, we've gotten closer since I gave up trying to change him, or mold him into what I want.
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