I fear for you Loo...

This piece is old…I wrote that back in June 05…it’s dedicated to my little brother…He still hasn’t changed. Boy I got love for the hommie. That’s my dude. I still fear for you though…


Time after time you seem to regress
not so sure if you've had time to address
all the issues which causes you stress
you need to wake up and not suppress
the changes will occur if you don't repress
instead of growing you seem to digress


You blame me for your lack of development (he still does…lol)
how could it be when you enjoyed being in the basement
I was always there for you even though I was away for school
when we would link up you always maintained everything was cool
you held a grudge against me for your lack of maturation
dude please, you were too busy masturbating
I recall the late night phone calls from my mother
wondering if you would come home but you ain't seem to bother
i got a better relationship with your father
and the preacher ain't even my father
how could that be Loo, you had so much potential (still do)
how you let these scumbags influence you
Though you moved in with me i still fear for you
i'm afraid one day they might call to identify you


these dudes you running with please dismiss them
when you're dead or in jail they won't even miss yah(you see what happened after you got arrested 07)
they done mistreat yah(left you hanging and you had to take the fall 07)
fuck the game, the hustle and the money man
I ain't got much but I’ll take care of you man
not for long 'till you get back on your feet man
ma dukes told me to look out for you man
though we're estrange brothers, i'll do that for you man
it ain't easy being who i am, so stop trying man
i don't care just be you and the world will accept you man
get that degree and make amend with yourself man
get you a job that will benefit you man
we can both move on up like the Jefferson’s man
make your dad proud cuz he done lost respect for u man
i know it's tough but i'll be there for you man
take your time and adjust to the world man
Ties and suits ain’t for everybody man (but they sure look good on me bro…lol)
thats my thing, sport your jeans and white t's man
the world is enough for the both of us man.


****Update****
Little man got arrested at his home soon after I moved to Florida. Apparently the Feds were camping out of his house for over a month. On the night they busted in, 10 of my brothers friends were in there and they all said the drugs and the weapons weren’t theirs. So my brother had to take the fall because it was his home. His closest dudes left him hanging even though the weapons belonged to them. My brother was actually asleep at the time. I was devastated when I heard the news but I could only do so much because I was now in a different state and I was dealing with my oldest brother situation that same weekend. See, my oldest, whom at the time I hadn’t seen since 2003, was coming to Florida to see me. He got in a car accident in Charlotte, North Carolina; it was so bad that they had to cut off one of his arms in order to save him. Both of these things happened the same weekend, and at the time I was planning my biggest event of 07. So I had a lot on my plate but we made it through. Both of my brothers are doing cool now. Little man ended up getting probation; he’s getting off that in a couple of months, so he’ll be partying with me in FL in no time. And my oldest brother is going through rehab right now. It’s a lot tougher for him but he’s a survivor. He’s going to make it.

I know sometimes I get on my brother’s case for being an asshole but I guess maybe I expect him to be somewhat like me because people expect him to be like me. But I guess to each his own and that’s the way life is supposed to be. Everyone has their own testimony…Hope this man can find some peace of mind now.